Perseverance
Well if there is anything I've learnt over the last year is that there is so much more out there to learn. I went to Christchurch to do Speech Therapy and discovered a million other things that I wanted to find out. I enrolled in a chemistry course over summer and discovered that there are more basic things that I neglected at school that I want to learn.
One of the things that amazes me is how little I was actually doing while I was working. It's almost like my mind was stalled for a while and now every little bit of information that I add to the pool makes me feels that little bit more alive.
It amazes me to think that my plans at one stage were just to carry on in a career where I plodded along doing something I hated with a passion just to get money.
Now I haven't turned into a hippy student who doesn't believe in money. That's one thing I've learnt over the last year. Even though money isn't the be all and end all it certainly plays a big part in feeling comfortable and reducing a bit of stress. I lived on a student allowance for a year and that was enough for a lifetime.
However I did learn that making something of myself is not as important as I thought it was, at least not from the point of view of others. Of course I want to be safe and secure but I don't want the obsession with things and success to get in the way of me learning more and experiencing more. I want to be able to try all these things that I want to learn about. And I want to make sure that I don't fall into a rut and typecast myself so to speak. I want to make sure that I don't put myself into a category and neglect to experience things that I am interested in, in order to maintain this idea of who I should be.
At the moment I am struggling with my summer chemistry paper. I almost gave up on it last night when it got too difficult but I'm going to make myself understand it. If it takes hours trying I'm going to do it because otherwise I'm going to end up working in a call centre for the rest of my life. Secure, safe.... and bored.
One of the things that amazes me is how little I was actually doing while I was working. It's almost like my mind was stalled for a while and now every little bit of information that I add to the pool makes me feels that little bit more alive.
It amazes me to think that my plans at one stage were just to carry on in a career where I plodded along doing something I hated with a passion just to get money.
Now I haven't turned into a hippy student who doesn't believe in money. That's one thing I've learnt over the last year. Even though money isn't the be all and end all it certainly plays a big part in feeling comfortable and reducing a bit of stress. I lived on a student allowance for a year and that was enough for a lifetime.
However I did learn that making something of myself is not as important as I thought it was, at least not from the point of view of others. Of course I want to be safe and secure but I don't want the obsession with things and success to get in the way of me learning more and experiencing more. I want to be able to try all these things that I want to learn about. And I want to make sure that I don't fall into a rut and typecast myself so to speak. I want to make sure that I don't put myself into a category and neglect to experience things that I am interested in, in order to maintain this idea of who I should be.
At the moment I am struggling with my summer chemistry paper. I almost gave up on it last night when it got too difficult but I'm going to make myself understand it. If it takes hours trying I'm going to do it because otherwise I'm going to end up working in a call centre for the rest of my life. Secure, safe.... and bored.
posted by Rachel @ 9:02 am
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