Pére Pressure
Well my Dad asked me why I hadn't written in my blog for so long so I thought I should update it :)
So he asked me to write about my trip up North. On the 9th of November I am heading back to Wellington to study in Wellington rather than Christchurch.
It led me to thinking about why I am moving and whether or not I have decided to do the right thing or not. I've gone over it again and again in my mind and questioned my motives. Asking myself whether I am doing it because I want to study Biomedical Science or whether I am doing it because quite simply, I can't hack it here.
I'm not sure how to write this without sounding completely neurotic. I guess the worry for me is whether I can cope on my own. My friend Sam said to me that I had lasted a year so that goes to show that I can make it on my own. My family constantly reassure me that I am making the right decision. Everyone in Wellington seems so happy that I am coming home. But I feel that this decision really needs to be my own.
In saying that, the one person who really made me realise why I wanted to come back, is my sister's sister in law, Katherine. We were talking about going back and she said quite matter-of-factly, as though there was no doubt about it "I guess it's different when you are single and you need your family around you", and I thought to myself that she's dead right. I've got a great family who I love more than anything in a beautiful city and a few very close friends who I care dearly about. For some reason I thought I had to stick it out and prove (to whom?) that I could make it on my own.
Sure, if I was passionate about Speech and Language Therapy it would be in my best interests to stick it out for four years and do what is important to me, but I'm not. And everything that is most important to me is in Wellington.
So I guess I have made the decision myself. I've had one of the most challenging years of my life in Christchurch. I've been forced to take a good, hard look at myself and to realise who I really am, without the distractions and immediate support of my friends and family. And I did hack it.
So he asked me to write about my trip up North. On the 9th of November I am heading back to Wellington to study in Wellington rather than Christchurch.
It led me to thinking about why I am moving and whether or not I have decided to do the right thing or not. I've gone over it again and again in my mind and questioned my motives. Asking myself whether I am doing it because I want to study Biomedical Science or whether I am doing it because quite simply, I can't hack it here.
I'm not sure how to write this without sounding completely neurotic. I guess the worry for me is whether I can cope on my own. My friend Sam said to me that I had lasted a year so that goes to show that I can make it on my own. My family constantly reassure me that I am making the right decision. Everyone in Wellington seems so happy that I am coming home. But I feel that this decision really needs to be my own.
In saying that, the one person who really made me realise why I wanted to come back, is my sister's sister in law, Katherine. We were talking about going back and she said quite matter-of-factly, as though there was no doubt about it "I guess it's different when you are single and you need your family around you", and I thought to myself that she's dead right. I've got a great family who I love more than anything in a beautiful city and a few very close friends who I care dearly about. For some reason I thought I had to stick it out and prove (to whom?) that I could make it on my own.
Sure, if I was passionate about Speech and Language Therapy it would be in my best interests to stick it out for four years and do what is important to me, but I'm not. And everything that is most important to me is in Wellington.
So I guess I have made the decision myself. I've had one of the most challenging years of my life in Christchurch. I've been forced to take a good, hard look at myself and to realise who I really am, without the distractions and immediate support of my friends and family. And I did hack it.
posted by Rachel @ 12:42 pm
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